Days Three, Four, Five, Six and Seven

Sorry I've been away for a ridiculous number of days. I know I can be seriously pathetic with this whole weight loss thing so y'all are really going to have to bear with me...

Le Repas

Intakes :-
Day Three: 400 Intake 431 calories. weight 177.9 pounds
Day Four: 500 Intake 431 calories. weight 177 pounds
Day Five: 450 Intake ?? calories weight THIS morning was 175.2 pounds
Day Six: 650 Intake ?? calories (no weigh-in)
Day Seven: 650 Intake ?? calories (no weigh-in)
Day Eight: 400. Intake 114 calories (refused to weigh)

The thing is it was all going so well until my beau told me he missed me every minute of every day and couldn't bear waiting for the weekend to see me. So I went to meet him after my interview on friday - I was told to taste a cocktail he'd invented - and literally didn't leave until late sunday evening, and even then he was begging me to stay over. So yeah that turned into two days of full english breakfasts- eggs, bacon, beans and sausage, and two take aways with an unspecified amount of grease, fat and cals (hangs head ashamed). Anyway I worked out a formula for 400ish calorie days which is mostly eggs in the morning, protein shake in the afternoon and porridge for dinner. When i'm feeling really peckish I have fruit salad with greek yoghurt or some veggies which I don't count the calories for. If only I can completely stick to this and have a small amount of treats when i'm craving them I should be dropping pounds in a couple of weeks. In about 4days of goodness I lost 5 pounds for God sakes. Oh and Gosh do I need to get involved with my exercise dvds (though I have been getting a lot of exercise with my beau :) )

L'Amour

I've already said quite a bit, I am damn near close to the L word with this lovely man. But I am scared. We have such a past it's absolutely crazy. When we were both a little younger and dumber he practically begged me to leave my boyfriend (I confided in him about how much he hurt me) and I refused, so he got mad and wouldn't talk to me for a year. Then we started talking and I got mad and we stopped talking for another year. Then he got a girlfriend and I couldn't believe I was so upset to see him with another girl - neither could he. but yea, here we are, in a better place, both single and both looking for love. Finally. I just don't kno why i'm scared to tell him...

D'Autres

I have been sooo exhausted and consumed with spending time with my beau that dieting has taken a back seat but I know deep down I now really have some serious reasons for wanting to lose weight. Firstly I really do like the guy and things are going so great with us at the moment that I just want to be with him and look forward to that new life of romance - and I refuse to have a boyfriend t this weight I must lose a minimum of 15 pounds before we're official (even though he already calls me his girl).

Secondly,

I got a JOB!!!

Quite a nifty job, well paid, mostly admin but including some selling and handling luxury watches in one of London's finest department stores!! A department store I have been trying to get into for like years. So in order to look good in the environment I would need to slim down like ASAP.

Only thing is before I get too excited I have to go for final clearance by management tomorrow afternoon and some sort of credit check was mentioned in the interview so hopefully my job isn't balanced on me passing it - because I doubt I will. In any instance I am still with an agency and can at least get a call centre job if things dont work out. But I am being positive and crossing fingers that they will.

Wish me luck guys!
Going to go read and comment on y'alls blogs!

Lurrve Thinspo ;)

He lurves my bum haha! X_X

xxx

Day Two

Ok so yesterday's post wasn't so quick but i've said most of what I would have here in yesterday's post so this really will be a quick one.

Le Repas

Day Two: 300 calories. Today's weight is 179.8 pounds.

Ok I slipped up today :( I had my cup of hot water, honey and lemon in the morning, threw in some biotin pills so not bad there. . . BUT on the way to my interview I slipped up and had a packet of wotsits (cheesey crisps) for a fattening 90 calories and have sat down like two hours ago to a huge plate of rice and peas with seasoned chicken. And yes I ate the skin. For Shame. So total intake is I don't know how much. I couldn't purge after because I was knocked into a food coma and had a 90 minute nap and with this full stomach I have to now go beat my body up with a minimum of 2hours cardio type workout - i'll be using my ministry of sound dvds *stay tuned for the lowdown on my collection with ratings etc* Such a fail on just day two of this but I must go on. . . tomorrow is a 400 calorie day. I'd like to eat vegetables only with scrambled eggs for dinner. We'll see how that goes. And MUST DRINK MORE WATER.

L'Amour

Went to see my beau MAC at work today had to give him the bad news that I won't be able to see him tomorrow or properly on thursday ;( I feel awwwful and I really wanted to see him but i'm going out tomorrow (tickets already bought sigh) and again on thursday to a hip hop karaoke night for my friend's birthday!! To make sure I still get to see a little bit of him I told him to come along with his mates :D I'll get to see him for a few hours before but of course I have these pesky interviews around lunch time each day . . . Oh girls i think i'm really falling for the guy. I want to see him every day and talk to him all the time. With that in mind I'll call him and then go work out :)

D'Autres

Still job hunting, after thursday i'll probably have more to say. All I have on my mind at the moment is Diet Money Diet Money Money Money - Debts to clear and bills to pay I desperately need a job.

xxx

Yesterday's post: Day One

I'm sooo pissed I wasn't able to blog yesterday but I got mine so meh. Just a quick one about my new diet and how yesterday went.

Le Repas

Start Weight: 181 pounds

Ok so there's this diet that a lot of you would have tried or at least heard about called the Skinny Girl Diet:

And then the ABC:

And the Healthy Skinny Girl Diet:

So basically starting (today as in monday) and running until Friday 27th April I will be doing these three diets back to back. I'll keep to the same base rules of drinking a minimum of two litres of water a day and at least a half hours exercise daily. On the healthy diet I will be eating mostly leafy and green vegetables - veggies in general really- rather than fruit which can have higher carb and sugar levels. The plan is to get on top of restricting my calories and getting used to exercising. And then by the end of this series of diets I would have hopefully raised my fitness levels and gained an awesome set of abs!! I don't want to get all caught up in losing x amount of pounds by y date because I just need to focus on my eating habits (restrict restrict restrict) and exercise routine.

Day 1 (HSGD) - 400
intake: hot water with lemon and honey, rice with tomato sause, carrots cauliflower and peas.
total in: 411.75
exercise: steamy sex!!

L'Amour

Ok, I'll be brief because my love life is always up down up down. I have been seeing this guy- lets call him MAC - for like 4years. of course on off - ok very on off there was a year in which we lost each others numbers so weren't in contact at all. BUT we ran into each other last year and have been getting closer (and getting down ever since). Anyways he's only a bit older than me - 23 going on 24 to my 21 - but he's all wanting to get serious in life and find the girl he wants to be with forever etc. Well until about 3 or so weeks ago I never looked at him that seriously but we had a really intense and emotional conversation (at the end of which I actually broke down in tears x_x). So now I have a number of different feelings for him and I'm scared their leading to the L word. I really think he could be the next signature in my guestbook of love. I know his feelings for me have always been really strong - he calls me the girl of his dreams and I am completely 100% confident and comfortable around each other. He loves my body - and proves it- and even prefers and adores when I DON'T wear make up! Best of all he makes me smile until my cheeks hurt (and the sex is out of this world)

D'Autres

In other things - since having a mini depression around christmas last year which led me to walk out of my job (I know dumb move) - I have been on the job hunt. I literally had 3 interviews last month, one last friday, one today (as in monday 9th) and every day this week except friday so really and truly like wtf I should soooo have another job by the end of next week *pleeeease*.
Going to sob into my pillow now!
Some thinspo xxx

Sorry everyone's half naked- it's kinda my thing right now!

Mwah ;) xxx

Two things

One I don't know if I should change the name of this blog -fresh start and all that- but in general I thought that rather than just rambling on at you all I every post I would rather have some sort of layout.

Sooo . . . from the next post I guess I'll be writing everything under these titles:

Le Repas
(food)

Everything to do with food, diet restricting and pop exercise in there as well.

L'Amour
(Love)

All things love and war, relationships etc- I dont have many friends so you probably wont here much on that front lol

D'Autres Choses
(Other things)

Speaks for itself really, anything else I feel necessary to tell y'all.

So hopefully this would leave you with very few essays to read on a day to day basis - lord knows I would write essay after essay on this blog in the past lol. I am desperate to post every day even if its just a lil something here and there so hopefully this structure will help with that. And it will leave me more time to comment on all you lovelies :)

On that note, second thing, I started following two quite new blogs today and they both seem really special, each with a different story to tell so go and check them out and get them motivated ;) Follow Diane here and follow Sophia here.

I've said enough, I'm outie xxx

My Ideal Body Thinspo:

Sorry a couple of these are ex-rated X_X

ps guys if you're reading this pleeeeease comment and say hi i want to feel confident in my decision to delete all my old posts with all your lovely comments!!

xx