CELLO guys

I am a fat fatty fat ass.

I am huge.

I am gaining at the speed of light.

There is no musical pun in this post despite the title  "cello" is just how i say hi!

I feel myself slipping back into a depression which is taking over my whole life...
I had my Harrods store approval today and all throughout being interviewed by the daintiest most glamorous little blonde I just kept looking at her size 6 frame (us 2) I couldn't help but think how much she must be judging me. Before I even opened my mouth I wondered if she decided based on my size that I wasn't a right fit, not quite like the beautiful model-esque image the world famous Harrods wanted to portray. I looked impeccable, my hair was lush and flawless my make up infallible and I know underneath the fat I am a pretty gurrl ;) so I guess we'll just have to see. I really REALLY don't want my fat holding me back anymore.

On that note have I been dieting?
NO
Have I been working out?
NO
Have I been losing weight??

FUCK NO!!

It's gotten to the point where I just dont know what to do... spent 5 minutes looking at the special k diet and it just seems pointless. I think I need to try the ABC diet or perhaps splurge diet again. Worst thing is way back when I actually got down to about 167 pounds on the ABC sooo pissed

Got to go shopping for my lover now, post again later.
Love Love
xxx